Unexpected Turn Of Events…

I’m in love with you
But I know that you don’t want anything to do with love
I’m really interested in you…
But I’m not the most perfect person
What do you mean??
I love your smile
That I would travel a mile just to see you
Like whenever I’m with you
I get butterflies in my stomach literally
I love your personality
Like you are just this amazing gentleman that treats people like the most important people
You make the word trust seem like a small thing
Two years and half of an amazing friendship
I have truly love every moment with you
Loving you from a distance has made me strong
Being in your arms feels like a net of protection
Meeting you changed my life
Tiny kisses on your lips
Telling you how much I truly appreciate you
A moment alone with you is all I need
Loving every part of your life
Your body
Your soul…
Walking into my life
You carried a bright light
And by all your might you had my back
I want to hold your hand through every moment of your life
With our fingers intertwined
I promise to never let you go
With a permanent ink
You graffiti your name on my heart
Art became your level of expertise
You literally took my breath away
Left me speechless
Everyday was a learning experience
You became my favorite subject
I want to go through the storm with you
Always cheer you up when you feel down and out
Be your motivation when you feel like giving up
Pray for you when you’re scared
Be that girl you are proud to have by your side… 👑

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One long text message
But no response
I realize that maybe I’m talking to myself…
Clearly I am losing it
And a lack sleep is making it worse
As I found myself all cried out
My heart torn into a billion little pieces
I don’t know if I can do this anymore
Proving to you that I’m strong woman
Maybe you don’t notice me
We have a history
And clearly you don’t want it to repeat itself
With your heart on lock down
I don’t have the access code to it
All I ask me to walk away
But I don’t know if I want to do it
I’m a disobedient soul
It happens to be for a special reason
I stare at you from a distance
Smiling to myself
Memories of what we shared begin to resurface
I’m not sure if I want to walk away
Seeing the moon shining brightly through the night
I realized that the sky never stopped believing that someday it would see it shine
Holding my hands
With our fingers intertwined
I don’t want you to let go
Making room for some disappointment
I’m hoping that you would not let me down
Like the people in my past life
I’m not ready to lose you
As we found standing in room full of people
I remember that I was once that girl cheering for you in front
But I found a way to move to the back of the crowd
Hoping that you would notice I managed to sneak out of the door
With no note to say goodbye
Dark clouds surrounded my heart
I feel the storm coming
As two lovers are apart
The clouds are crying on their behalf…
And I guess I don’t know if I can say goodbye

Tortured Soul

When is it going to end??
Are you ever going to see me the way I see you??
Can I just hear someone say it is just a joke 😂??

I feel alone
A heart that was once warm is out in the cold
Clearly you can’t see it
But I’m a broken soul…

You ripped me apart with your actions
That I can’t help
But question this thing between us

Are the feelings still there
Or have I truly become a the ultimate cover girl
Do I truly mean anything to you
Or are you just using me like everyone else

Everyone is gone
And it has been a long time since bothered to think about me
But I never stopped caring about you

Stopping the hands of time
Maybe you just don’t give a dime
I wish you were not like those flashbacks of my open wound

Actions clearly speak louder than words
And clearly you make time for the people you truly value in your life
Seeing the list of people in your life

I’m nowhere to be found
Maybe I didn’t check properly
As I find myself contemplating

Just send me away
In a box
To a different world..

I love you so much
Just like I do now and forever more

I’m loner in this world
And I want you to notice that
But your eyes are looking at something else
Clearly I’m not worthy to be with you

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I wish that you could take the time to understand how much I love you
The way I take the time to show you how I feel
And appreciate everything about you…
You are not the most perfect person
But you have qualities that make you perfect in my eyes
I have come to love your flaws and all
For you have turned into a special somebody to me
I remember seeing you from a distance
Thinking to myself
How did God create a handsome soul like you
When you opened your mouth
I felt like the angels were singing to me in your voice
Cupid was no longer on my shoulder
But on my heart
As you try shooting on my heart
But instead you tattooed your name
My life was no longer the same
Feeling like a little girl in a candy store
I felt like addicted to your love
Enjoying every second of the day
I looked forward to seeing you…
Gazing into your handsome eyes
I found myself in another world
Where no one existed besides you and I
Fingers intertwined
With my head on your chest…
I begin to feel nothing but happiness…
My deepest fears faded away
And I’m surrounded by color
I realized that I was in my happy place
Laying under the stars
This is truly a perfect moment
Staring into your eyes
I found myself feeling at home

Thee Unknown Place 😔

Splash!!!
The sound of the water goes..
As I found myself drowning in a pool of unspoken emotions
I hope that I don’t find myself floating as yet
The pressure of the water increase
And I feel my eyes burning like fire
Tear drops begin to flow down
As memories of my past resurface years later
From the beginning…
I start to feel all the emotions that were buried six feet under the ground
Memories of what used to be happy me gone
That is has been a long time since I was truly happy
I feel completely emptied out
Like a tin
I feel like you have used me
That I once became your addiction
But that is how life is…
We use each other
And we both have quenched our thirsty soul
We take until we both have nothing left to give
As I laid in the water
With the water right above my head
Images of mystery man start rushing through my mind
Realizing that you were just a figure of my imagination
I could see you in the distance
But never had an opportunity to hold you in an instance
I begin to hate myself for allowing my past life to leave me so vulnerable
Pushing my body to sink completely in cold water
Anger starts rushing through my head
I hated myself and my inability to protect myself from harms way
At some point it was an amazing feeling
But gravity brought me to the ground
And I got the biggest reality check
My dreams started fading away
And I was in that place again
A dark unknown place

Unseen reflection of a mystery man

Some days I wish I could get to know you
Most days I wish I knew you then…
Mystery soul please reveal your reflection
I find myself always wondering if you truly want to be my best friend
Or do you see me as temporary cover girl
I’m not perfect soul
And neither are you
But the things I see in you are perfect..
Always making the effort to see if you are okay
Apart of me feels like I’m annoying you
You can say that there is nothing wrong
But I wish I knew the real you
The being behind the mask…
As I try to aim for your heart
I begin to get lost in the windows of your soul
Hoping to find the answer to this unanswered question
I wish you could talk to me about it
Surrounded by light all around you
I hope that being me will be enough
Strip me off my mask
I just want to be the girl that you fall in love with…
Maybe not today
But someday…
Trying to fix things
And making the friendship more than what it was
Don’t make me empty promises
Or feed me lies
I don’t want die losing you
A million apologies
But this time I want to know what should I do for you to believe me
Mr Green Monster
Go away, I do not want to be that girl anymore
I need this mystery soul
For it is well with my soul
I am not sure if he remembers me
But my heart will always choose him…
I can be your lover
I can be your best friend
But actions speak louder than words
And maybe I wasn’t good enough for you back then
At this moment in time I feel like you don’t see the effort that I am making
Surrounded by beautiful mountains
And a breathtaking scene I have arrived at a place where we first fell in love
I have kept my promise to you
For I am home where I left my heart
And in your heart is where I found peace and happiness wrapped up in one person

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She saw him in from distance
But this time he was spotted speeding
Driving at 120 km/h
He was definitely rushing to towards something
But it wasn’t her…
Her mind surrounded by unspoken thoughts
Guess he never knew what she was feeling…
He always taught her to speak her mind
But it was that moment that she wished she never fell into the forbidden ocean
Her worst fears have become her a life of betrayal…
As she begins to see something she never thought would ever happen to her…
A familiar face stands with the man of her dreams
Hands held tightly together
Fingers intertwined
She could tell that those people are very close with each other
But maybe this could be her wildest imagination
As they approach where she was standing
Her heart dropped into a million little pieces
As she saw the person that she confined to hurt her in a way that she never saw coming
Eyes locked in each other gaze
It was like she never existed
Tears roll down her face
She wish that this moment wasn’t real
But the smile on his face said a thousand words
As she begins to why her??
Bottle of spirit on the counter
She begins to drink the pain away
But it just hurts a little more than expected…
Thoughts of his smile begin to come back
And she realized that it was a mask
She begins drinking some more until she passes out completely
As she begins to feel how she never thought love would betray her in this way
She wishes she could mute for a long time
And her long time turns into forever